Terri’s lovely message to me :3

taken from the heart of my spookyleireza

Today it has been five years since I got with Amanda AKA http://naughtybadbread.tumblr.com/

Time fucking flies.


I remember bringing my best friend to meet her.
One day a week or so later they were busy on omegle while I was asleep in the same room the bastards 🙂

I remember meeting her for the first time, but not what we talked about, only the rushed failure of a kiss when she had to leave.

I remember our first kiss, outside the burger king she was working at at the time.
A policeman cheered us on from his patrol car.

I remember when she asked me out properly,
and I remember what our adventure to roundhay park was like as well.
Even after all the arguments and stress,
even after her mum passing and her dad being Ill,
even after our first house had no hot water,
and the next had rats,
and the one after had damp.
Even after all that, I don’t regret a thing. I wouldn’t swap it for the world.


So I’m Currently Reading Sunstone….

For more – http://shiniez.deviantart.com/


Sunstone is the story of Lisa Williams, a fledgling writer who has kept her submissive longings buried for years, and Allison Carter, a dominant woman who has found herself largely isolated from the outside world.Following their relationship from early online interactions to their first meet up and beyond what Sunstone handles impressively is the BDSM nature of their relationship.

Crafting a story based on a lesbian couple with a fondness for bondage and domination makes for a pretty easy target of accusations of sleazy exploitation. The magic of Sunstone is the intelligence, wit and well crafted characters circumvent any such accusations.

What is most surprising is Sunstone is the work of Stjepan Sejic aka nebeziel known for his stunning art on Witchblade, Artifacts and more and his wife Linda Luksic Sejic aka sigeel who handles the writing.

Sunstone was born from a frustration and burn out with the comics industry that Stjepan was working in, primarily that he was drawing other peoples stories and prompted by an earlier experience previous to him making it professionally, he decided start an alias on Deviant Art where he could explore fetishistic images. A series of pin up pieces slowly evolved into what Sunstone is now.

The story doesn’t shy away from the couples sexuality or their love for fetish gear but makes Lisa and Allison complex, alive, flawed and believable characters. It shows that it’s possible to create something about lesbians in a BDSM centred relationship that is sexy and erotic, without reducing them to deadeyed sex dolls.

Whilst it’s currently a webcomic there is a mounting demand for a printed edition.


Pre-work rambling…

I’ve recently discovered that I need to be more assertive when it comes to work.


This is me. Being assertive. Ahah.

My boss is an absolute nightmare BUT I have managed to gather some extremely incriminating evidence against him prior to his extensive use of Porn on My work computer on my days off and even as soon as I’ve left the building.

Oh, we aren’t talking about that Vanilla shit men are caught stroking their counterparts to ..ohh no…

This was an extraordinary find!
This  was a list made up of the most random porn searches I have ever seen!
We had transsexuals being fisted, gay chatroom gangbangs, “fillthy dirrty sloppy lesbian sex” and “women orgasmning desperately” through a search engine.. the works.. and one solid crumpled piece of tissue under my chair.


Me and my partner reckon his dicks broken. Ahahaha

Anyways, I was willing to let it slide.. but he turned into an ogre one afternoon and by then I had just about enough of his shit..his word vomit and his mental abuse, we got into an argument and he said some pretty ego damaging things so I got mean and I slapped my metaphorical balls out onto his desk for everyone to see. 
For once.
I’m usually the quiet nice one who cowers at the very thought of confrontation.

So now.. he’s being really reallllllly nice to me and its making me feel like I’m my very Own boss!

I feel wonderful again.
Unbreakable even!
Let’s just hope it stays that way.

In a previous post I spoke about this insane experiment I was going to conduct where I was to change up the colours I wear to work to see if it changes said boss effectively.

(It was to see if the colour blue had a calming effect on him..psychologically.)

And the Result? no. Did it fuck!

If anything he started complaining that “id already wore this top” and then he had the cheek to tell me that I was stinking the room out day after day!

…And just to clarify that was One day a few weeks back when I had no way of getting to work, so I walked and the sun was beating down on me like god knows what..and I made the mistake of Not having any deoderant at hand. Dumdumdum! :O
But yeah despite everything I feel pretty good and knowing I have this power over him ..through no fault but his own forgetting the most important rule if you are gonna be a pervert for the day..

I can’t help but feel infuriated and violated by the simple fact that he’s been looking at hardcore lesbians going at it.. and I am a pretty hardcore lesbian.


Anyways, I have a company to run in a few hours so Amanda.out.


The words of my heart.

I chose to upload this picture as it is now the Eve of Leeds Pride 2014 and I wanted to share with you all, my beautiful Fiancee.

Leeds pride 2010

Terri-Louise. (Aka @fueledbypixiedust on WordPress.)
One day I will marry her during Summer Solstice in a big field full of our loved ones and most importantly our future.

She is the light of my life, she lubricated the hinges to my rusty neglected heart, reached inside and pieced it back together, carefully studying the holes left by the bad memories.

She encapsulated and protected it, preserving it for five long wonderful years.

My heart may never leave this immaculate condition.

I belong. At last.

Me and my one true love.
Nothing can stop me from being with this woman forever.
I guarantee it.

I love you xxx